I try to be aware and grateful each day of my life but there are certain times or events that bring into sharper reality how much I do have for which to be thankful. My life is full. I have an amazingly supportive husband and a marriage that makes my heart swell with pride; no words can ever encompass how he truly completes me. I have a family that, even in the midst of conflicts, is supportive and bands together. I have an extended family through very close friends that I adore. I have my pup and cat that give unconditional love. I work with caring people and am pursuing creative endeavors that round out my life. But while my life is full, my heart heavy.
Last week my best, good girl lost her mother. My heart is broken for her. I can not begin to imagine the pain she has been going through or will have to endure. I know she will make it through this and it will make her an even more remarkable person (if this is even possible) but I am sure that losing her mother consumes her; it would consume me and my best, good girl and I are connected at the heart, so I have this on good authority.
I want to say to you, my best, good girl: you are brave in your sadness. While your world is topsy-turvy and nothing will ever be the same and I am sure nothing makes sense right about now and you doubt if it ever will, remember: you are the constant and you will take all the words and love your sweet mama gave you and you will make this place so much better than you already have, just by being you, my sweet. When you want to scream, cry, talk or just sit remember you have so many people who love you and want to surround you with support but you have to be gentle with yourself, as gentle and tender as you are with everyone else.
Today, more than any to date, I am thankful for the survivor in all of us. When our road seems hopeless, there is some way through and we will be able to make our lives and the lives of others better, in some way, from everything that we experience. We just have to know this and believe this. xox