This Day…….

This is the day we have set aside to collectively give thanks, acknowledge even the smallest blessing in our lives. As I look around I see reminders of goodness and this gives me hope.

I have always been an ‘old soul’. Most times I yearn to lighten up but I am learning to lean in, to accept all that I am, to ALLOW. Being thankful and grateful offers a gateway to the best of both of those worlds while offering little conflict with my true ‘old soul’ nature.

Daily I try to be thankful for all the wonderful things and people that make up my life. I am thankful for a sunny- yellow VW bug that makes me smile every time I see her. I am thankful for the unending love and devotion of my one true love. I am thankful for blue hues everywhere. I am thankful for those that left their mark on my heart even though their stay was all too brief. I am thankful that I am gathering my tribe of creatives that envelope me in their support. I am thankful for good times and good friends, my family. I am thankful that I am on a journey to myself, that this very day, I am more of who I am meant to be even if I can’t always articulate what that means.   I am thankful that when words fail me,  I am but a moment away from others that are on similar paths and in their words I oft times find my voice. An on-line friend of mine, Darlene Kreutzer, has an uncanny ability to see into my very soul:

‘The words swallowed whole, gulped down in a fit of desire come out fragmented from lips that no longer understand how to speak the language of a life changing inside of her.”

I am thankful for my life, even when the words are just out of reach, leaving me with emotions just at the surface.  I am thankful that we can always re-write our stories, our happily ever afters.  xo

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Recognizing…….

Summer is fading. I can smell, see,  and feel the autumn coming in and I love it! sumMEr was full for me but I would be remiss if I did not admit that somewhere along the way it fell just a bit short of my expectations. The guest bloggers were fabulous and more than I could have ever anticipated but I don’t feel like I upheld my end ~ to myself. Once again, I let the days pass by in a blur with sumMEr just on the tip of my tongue.

Then I remember to be gentle with myself.

Many people commented that sumMEr helped them, made them more aware and I recognize it did the same for me.

I now recognize more of what I do and don’t want in my life. I recognize I want more care-free-ness, more play. I recognize that I want more writing, more yoga and more books, less stress. I recognize that I want more singing and dancing. I recognize that I want to be more comfortable in my skin, the only skin I will ever have. I recognize I want relationships that are deeper and more meaningful. I recognize that I want a simpler life. I realize I want to live ~really LIVE~ my one precious life. I recognize that it is up to me, each and every day, to take steps (as small as they may be) toward my goals, to embrace what is while making what will be. I recognize I have to actively ALLOW and keep my eyes and heart gentle, be less judgmental while finding my true, authentic self.  I recognize that I create my own reality.

I recognize this is what life is – more about the recognizing, not so much the fading.

Truth…….

She’s not in a race to get “there.”  She desires to maximize “here.” ~Tonya Leigh

I am giving myself permission to step back from the aimless searching, overwhelm, all the self-imposed  comparisons and expectations, the lists that no longer calm, the wasting of my precious time with a busyness of nothing. I want to delve more into me and make friends with myself, fall in love with myself. I have always felt like an extrovert but secretly wonder  if that is my truth. I really don’t like labels, that is my truth. My truth is sitting quietly, thinking, reading, writing, being, hoping, loving. I feel that I have strayed from these truths. I also want to add to these truths and know I can not do that while on the current path that I travel.

This is me~letting all that go, shifting my thoughts and outlooks to finally find my truth.

Today……

I have an outline of my focuses for this  sumMEr  with the main point of all this being:  How to change my relationship with me so that I will be better equipped to help others and connect with my soul’s work and the Goddess that I am? I know it all starts with me – no one else can do this work. We all have magic to share and we must take care of ourselves and believe in ourselves in order to be able to share that magic.

I am becoming more aware of how I speak to and about myself, aiming to be gentle. I am putting in place rituals that feel right for me and organizing so I have a calm reprieve to physically land when I let my mind get out of hand. I will make better food choices and start taking better care of myself. I will listen to what I need most and stand firm, not apologizing, remembering that when I say ‘yes’ to something that does not serve me, I am saying ‘no’ to something that might. I will not give into guilt. I will remember that ALLOW is my word of the year and I will make sure to have quiet time at least weekly, where I can reflect and offer gratitude. I aim to lighten up and not take everything so seriously, acknowledging that I only get this one life. I will enjoy the things and people that I love most. Everyday I will honor myself and in doing so, create a safe place for others.

There are many books and ecourses  and retreats that I want to delve into. I started this sumMEr off with an online class hosted by Liz Lamoreux and an art workshop at the studio of Jenni Horne. I am now joining Liz in her Inner Excavate-Along and Catherine Just in her Soul*Full Summit .  My lovely friend, Jenn Borek, has invited me to participate in her ecourse which involves one of my favorite things in the world: sticky notes! 😉 Rounding off my sumMEr will be the Artist’s Way Bookclub that the fabulous Jessica Brogan.

I invite you to poke around and see if any of these things call to you.  You might want to take this sumMEr to go inside yourself and reflect. There is no wrong way to do this – the ‘being aware’ is the most important part; it’s all in the becoming. Go at your own pace. Notice how you talk to yourself . Reflect on what you really want from your one precious life. Lean in. Live your Poem. xo

 

Today……..

All is well with my lil’ world. My honey is working on his creative endeavors and I am piddling around with my own.

Wanted to pop in and say ‘hello’…..I have not forgotten about you….just trying to organize some things and determine the best way to chart my course.

I am slowly realizing that a huge part of wanting to honor.empower.motivate.inspire others is to start with me…..Self-Care and Self-Communication are key.Those little untruths we tell ourselves, those things we let stop us from living a full life, I am interested in re-thinking all that.

If we supported ourselves like we do our spouses, children, best friends (even people that we have never met face to face) just think of how limitless we would ALLOW ourselves to be? xo

Art……

I am joining a few friends of mine in taking part in a blog hop entitled “Love of Art”.  I wasn’t sure what I would write as, even though I love words, they oft-times elude me. I tend to read blogs that sum up my emotions but as far as writing my own, I am sometimes stumped.

This is one reason art has found its way into my heart. In a few words and some paint, a bit of paper and a button, scrap of lace or stitch, I can convey what is in my soul. I find that as I sit with a brush and ALLOW myself to just start that I amaze myself with the end result. Sometimes it is rather simple but I would like to think that life is the same and if I follow my heart that it will lead me where I need to go.

Art can take all shapes and within us stir all ranges of emotions.

Art can bind and build communities.

Art can heal our hurts and open our hearts.

xoxo

join me and a few of my closest~ My Tribe ~ for their thoughts on   “Love of Art”

Overcome……

I am overcome. In the best of ways.

Andy is making his dreams come true and that makes my heart sing.

I am ALLOWing and that feels wonderful and freeing.

I have so many supportive people in my life and I am leaning into all this goodness.

I want to live as authentically and in the most genuine spirit as possible and I know this is the year for grand things.

This fills my soul: “The gifting of oneself and one’s talents is a most honest way of sharing with those around us, because it forbids pretense, and demands that we give others something real, something tangibly experienced. Far too rarely do we truly enact this kind of gift-giving—this sacrifice, even—but when we do, something holy and unexpected happens.”~Kinfolk Magazine

xo

ALLOW…….

Many people have started adopting a One Word a year practice.  This year my online artist’s group that I now fondly call ‘My Tribe’ is helping to build the excitement even more!

I have been doing this for a few years and I like it for many reasons. One Word is easier to remember and there is no guilt if I miss a day in implementing it, whereas many make resolutions and begin counting the minutes until the first is broken. I prefer to give myself as much encouragement and positive reinforcement as possible and the One Word has worked this type of supportive magic.

In anticipation of the New Year/One Word, I had been thinking of all the options, after all,  I do love the words and there are so many! I had decided on Brave and was contemplating all this one word meant to me when I had a conversation with a wise soul and she mentioned that bravery lives inside us and we have to allow it. ALLOW………yes, that would be my word for 2012 – and why stop at one? Why not define what I want to ALLOW – have sub-words, if you will. (Words are food for my soul and, much like potato chips, I can’t always stop with just one.) Plus, I love it when my words chose me – it makes this seem more divine and possible and all-encompassing.

I made a charm bracelet so I have a tangible reminder in case I forget to open my heart and soul to ALLOW. (and I will ALLOW my Intention Charm Bracelet to be my first Etsy listing – http://www.etsy.com/listing/90073615/hand-stamped-intention-charm-bracelet?ref=ss_listing see, my word is working already!) ALLOW the process, in all its messiness and goodness. ALLOW myself to learn the lessons and relax in knowing it will all unfold as it should. ALLOW my creativity to flourish and be enough. ALLOW happiness and peace even in the low moments of doubt that can sneak up when least expected or uninvited. ALLOW the shift in focus and embrace the rituals and movements that will propel me forward to create my dreams into reality. ALLOW the bravery, organization, trust, grace, truth, strength, kindness, courage, soul, heart, intuition, belief……xo

If you’d like more inspiration and to get to know the wonderful, creative members of  My Tribe, stop by  Fly Tribe blog hop.