I am a romancer of outcomes. I am a collector of much. I am soft-hearted. I am hesitantly hopeful. I am open to slow change. I am looking for hidden beauty. I am hesitant. I am restless. I am becoming.
he was almost ours. we were almost three. they say everything happens for a reason. ‘they’ were not forced to watch from a distance what might have been. ‘they’ did not have to ache for what would never be.
now my breath catches when i think of him. my heart is soft and my eyes tear. there is a softness reserved for only him.
we are two and will always be. we are strong and true. we are in the now with memories of him and who he now is. xo
“Above all, be true to yourself, and if you cannot put your heart in it, take yourself out of it.” ~Unknown
I have been thinking a lot…..if you know me you will not doubt this. Oft times I get overwhelmed and anxious even without knowing specifically why; the words, they do not come and I feel inarticulate and silly and vulnerable. The smallest of things can send me into a panic. I do not like feeling this way, Sam I am, I do not like it one bit. I am trying to calm my mind so I can make room for the real, the here, so it does not pass me by in a frenzied mess. One way I am doing this is through a fabulous online class hosted by Liz Lamoreux called Create Space. I already feel calmer and more at peace than when I first started the class.
I am trying to embrace my story, lean in, live my poem and remember that I must honor where I am on my journey, let it empower me and motivate positive change that will inspire the creativity and soul-fullness that I want to carry within and share with others.
Another artist I am fortunate enough to be taking a class from in the upcoming months, Jenni Horne, penned a lovely, heartfelt blog post and urged her readers to share more of their truth. I get so caught up in details and life and worries and shoulds and maybes but I know my truth is here. It is in the becoming. xo